a call.

it has come so quiet that in my loud life, i was barely able to hear it. only noticing when participating in one of my least favorite things of all:

running

i have taken to hiding in Him as the Psalms tells us to do. but i have taken to hiding in Him in such a way that i hide my light from everyone else.

i pray constantly for my loves who have yet to know the beauty of my King.

i pray that someone else will come and shed light.

to be quite honest, i just dont feel like i am wise enough to share the gospel and what Christ means to me. i barely understand what He tells me, there is no way that i would be able to relay what god tells me others.

even in the rare couple of instances where i have listened to that voice and talked about what He has laid on my heart, i walk away discouraged, knowing that deep down what just came out of my mouth was complete gibberish that made no sense.

mainly, i am terrified of the reaction i will receive.

i am terrified of the judgement that i feel will inevitably come when i talk about Him.

and today on my run He convicted me in his loving and perfect way.

i hide myself in Him because i am afraid to proclaim the good works that have happened in my life.

not because i receive his confidence when i hide in him, but because i am too worried about how it will come across to say Christ is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

the fear that i will not be able to explain His love and goodness in the right way. the fear of rejection.

a call.

to hide in Him and receive His confidence to talk to others and tell about Jesus and proclaim His wonderfulness.

a call.

to shine my light so ALL can see it.

and see Him.