real life. real ish.

this real life, yall.
it ain't so hott.
i'm really pale, i wake up at 6am, i go to bed at 9 (practically), i have one million errands to run in a one hour lunch break that feels like 15 minutes, i know nothing, i know no one, i mess up all da tyme, i work 40 hrs/5days per week, i drive on 40 and listen to the traffic reports. i iron. i wear slacks.
i just. i just.
WHAT IS MY LIFE.
someone a lil older than me said they felt like when they were graduating college they felt like they were getting ready to step into darkness.
i am a college graduate and i feel like i am sitting in darkness.
i crave normalcy. sleeping in. tanning. friends. roommates. my own schedule. coffee dates. lunch at my house. i crave it. all of it.



this is a season. just like all the rest.
im choosing, day by day - moment by moment to just be thankful.
i am SO thankful. really, i am. the Lord has blessed abundantly. far greater than i could have planned.
im just that selfish little child that you want to shake until they realize what they have.
this life. this whirl wind of a life. some kind of crazy; some kind of beauty.