while i eat my edamame.

i leave for college in 6 days.
6 days.
i move out of my house that i have lived in for 16 years in 6 days.
i have never moved in my entire life.
at the moment, i cant walk in my room. there are boxes all over the place.
its a tad overwhelming.
i look at all of these boxes and wonder how it all will fit in the tiniest room known to man, which consequently is also my dorm room.
i have made more lists in the past month, than ever before.
and every list is a full, no more room to write anything piece of notebook
paper.

but strangely enough, im excited.
i mean im nervous. of course im nervous.
i wouldnt be me if i wasnt.
but my excitedness outweighs my nervousness.

let us stop and marvel at that last sentence.

let me have a quick moment of honesty. i have been secretly stressing about college in my brain for the past year and a half. for almost two years i have over analyzed and stressed over every last detail i could thing of about college.
and now that its here, like 6 days away here im excited.
what? who is this girl?
this is the most dramatic change ive ever had my entire life and im excited.



all because i am so certain that this is where god wants me. crazy.