i need a chill pill.

if i used the facebook status, it would say julianna is confused.

you know when you have something all figured out and it makes complete sense and your happy and excited and everything feels right and then a letter comes in the mail that says youve been excepted to state and the next thing you know...you have no clue where you want to go to college?

yeah, thats me right this moment.

i had it all figured out. i was going to go to uncg. i was going to major in elementary education. i was going to have lindsay as my ra. i was going to hang out tay. i was already beginning to work through the fact that i wouldnt go to the same college as christin. i was telling babysitting clients i would be around in years to come. i was telling my dance studio i would still dance there.
and then i got the stupid letter that has turned my world upside down and left me with sleepless nights.
i have no clue what to do.
uncg is safe. i know uncg. it would be good there. i would love it there.
state is scary. i dont know state. i dont go to state 2 to 3 times a week. it is the unexpected. but something excites me when i think of going there. its an adventure. its somewhere new and exciting and unknown to me.
i need an adventure. im stuck in a rut. and i want something new, fresh and exciting. i need a change. a drastic change. a chance to get a completely new routine with completely new people.
and underneath all of that scariness, there is peace.
but when i think of uncg, there is peace.
see what i mean?
im confused.